I am pretty sick today and it bums me out because we missed running yesterday and now I am missing it today. Yes, I am back at it! We started last week at the beginning of Couch To 5K. Starting at the beginning after all the hard running work we put in last year can be discouraging, but it is better than not re starting at all.
What happened was I got to the point where, although I wasn't at goal, I was content. My clothes fit fine, maybe even with a bit of room and while I did not feel thin, I also didn't feel fat. It is this happy medium that was the beginning of trouble. "Happy" being a key word. I feel happy and I want to celebrate life with family and friends, which of course means f-o-o-d. So fast forward several months to the present and here you have me feeling miserable, nothing fits and I not only feel fat but the scale reinforces that feeling.
I am 10 pounds heavier than I was the last time I started running. I have been afraid of the scale for months and braved it yesterday and while not surprised, I was disappointed.
I will not share my weight and measurements with you this time. I just can't.
Changes are coming. Exercise is the first step I am taking. I am taking smaller steps toward healthier eating (although I will get there). I debate going back to Weight Watchers. I know it works but wish I could make the changes as lifestyle changes rather than joining a program. One reason is because when I am not part of WW I leave it all behind. It seems separate from my "real life".
Here are a few things I am doing now to get back on track;
Beginning Couch to 5K with the goal of running a 5K at the end of March.
Using the wii fit on non running days
Teaching health and nutrition as part of our homeschool studies to help the girls understand why we need to make better choices and making sure I am modeling this
If you are an arm chair psychologist like myself you will notice above that I associate food with happiness and contentment. I will also need to find a way to work on that. It is so untrue because food actually brings me here to the point I am right now, feeling like crap and dreading digging myself out of it.
I'll keep you posted!